My initial thought was to tell the story of a woman with HIV who was not afraid of dying. However, ‘not afraid of dying’ could not bear the weight of Zhang Xi’s story. During the editing process, we fell into a trap regarding ‘truth’: we could not tell when Zhang Xi was telling the truth and when she was fabricating a story. And if it was fabrication, we couldn’t understand why she was doing this. Our editing reached an impasse. After two years of reflection, we finally understood: this doesn’t record Zhang Xi’s real life; rather, it records Zhang Xi ‘deducing’ her own life story. She seized the power to tell a story, decided which figures would appear in it, even arranged dramatic events. We are no longer entangled in the question of truth or falsehood, but follow Zhang Xi’s wish to express her suppressed or as-yet-unsatisfied desires.