When the phone rang on a Friday evening, six years ago, Ayal Goldberg, who had just turned 34, packed a bag, put on his uniform, kissed his boyfriend and went to fight in the Second Lebanon war. It was just as Ayal felt ready to finally quit the Israeli army - a moment he'd been contemplating for years. But the war started, and Ayal - the son of a well-established pioneer family, an openly gay leftist filmmaker found himself leading a tank across the Israeli-Lebanese border, not far from his hometown. How could he have gotten there? What had led him to that moment? As the son of the mayor of Metula, he was brought up to believe in the Zionist dream, fulfilling his vocation as an Israeli man and as a soldier. It turned out not as expected: he became an artist, came out of the closet and started questioning his national and political beliefs. But still, every year, like any other Israeli man who has completed the three years obligatory military service, he went to his annual reserve duty. Using footage shot over ten years of reserve duty service, three funerals, two wars, and one boyfriend at home in Tel Aviv, Ayal is telling his story, the story of his struggle. His sense of belonging to Metula and his family heritage, to his father and his ideas about manhood, homeland and military duty– as opposed to the man Ayal grew up to be. It's the story of a man trying to be who he is, in a reality that never lets him forget where he came from.